Tuesday, November 07, 2006
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More often times we forget to appreciate the people around us. Those people who touches our lives in their most discreet ways. We are constantly looking for someone who can make a difference. But if we can only look closer, they are with us all along...waiting to be affirmed.
Let me tell you a story of a lady, the lady who made me fall in love again and again.
FRIENDSHIPI studied at the pontifical University of Santo Tomas. Nevertheless my college years are nothing of extraordinary. I am just your average nice guy who seldoms participates in class affairs. Maybe because I prefer spending my time with my friends outside the campus, playing dota, drinking beer, flirting etc.. Fortunately my classroom houses some of the most beautiful faces in campus. And I am the kind of person who appreciates beauty so much. So it really gives me enough reason to appreciate my class. And here is where I met my wonderful subject, the very reason why I made this blog.

Let me intoduce to you Ms. Rochele Antolin. A petite girl with an enourmous heart. She is always teased for being the smallest in class, standing only 5 foot I guess.Lets call her by the nick of Rochy. She has this semi-curly black hair that I always tease, "kulot ay salot". She is really fond of tying it in ponytail, I used to tell her that some girls are getting their hair curled because it's "in" nowadays and that she is somewhat "blessed" because hers is natural. But all that she wish for is to have it straight. She has this morena complexion. She likes to sun bath so that's why. She also have this kissable lips! In fact if you look closely, Rochy has some resemblance to Angelina Jolie, who happens to be my favorite artist. Finally my most treasured part of her face, her chunky cheeks. I just can't get enough of her cheeks that I always pinch them everytime I see her. But there is more to Rochy than her beautiful face. For she is the most wonderful person I've ever met!

Rochy is not one of my original classmates. She was transferred to our room because a re-shuffling took place when I was in 3rd year second semester. I've known her since 2nd year already though I can only recognize her by face. She was introduce to me by Joie who happens to be her bestfriend. My (ex)girlfriend and Joie are somewhat friends so you do the math. I really did not notice her that time maybe because I am having my own personal affairs. And so we became classmates, but still nothing much happened. By the time first semester ends I'm already single, I decided to break up with Angela due to some reasons. The life of singlehood calls me again. It's pretty much satisfying being single, you can do almost anthing you want and basically you can meet other people. So I became more and more comfortable with the class. I became more mature in the process.
Rochy is a very charming person, always down to earth. We got along almost instantly. I really can't resist her charm considering that she is also cute. She is the type of person whom you can always turn to. I get to talk to her whenever I'm bored. And we talk about almost anything. In fact I always transfer chair during our religion class(because the course is boring). And pinching her cheeks has became my vice. I pinch it so much that it almost hurt, my bad. I fell in love with those cheeks. It's like a marshmallow that I want to bite. But still there is no attraction between us. All I really need that time is a friend.
CHAIN OF MEMORIESRochy has always been special to me. I can't deny that she is one of my crush. But of course I only keep that to myself. So i try to be normal when im with her. We had lot of memories together. Though not that spectacular everything to me is priceless. Thus is the beauty of yesterdays.
anniversry rcf 12-bday 13 ring 14-revelation 15- work 16 xmas party 17 present
As simple as she may seems, rochy is like any other girls out there. She have this "kikay" kit where she put all of her make-ups. And here I am scavaging all of its contents. Ive tried almost everything that she has , ahhh girl stuffs. My personal favorite is the lip gloss, sweet and lushious. The eyelash curler, which I can't maximize since I have very small eyes. One time when we have no professor, I gave her the pleasure of putting make up on meI wonder how I looked. I always thought Im beasutiful if ever Im gonna be a girl. At least she knows how to put make up, which i consider essential for being awoman.
She is the most artistic person Ive ever met. When it comes to art our class starts turning to her. I was really quite impressed when I saw her talent.She has this drawing book which she seldoms bring to class. I thought it was just a work of someone else. Her sketching abilities are just natural.It's too bad I can't show them to you, I just love those masterpieces! Drawing has also been my favorite past time, her hand seems to work like magic. Aside from sketching she can be creative too. When it comes to activities like poster making, bulletin board and props making, she is the man. I think she won first place during a poster making contest, now thats sweet. That not all because she can sing too. She was a choir member of jpia, choir member of RFC(their church), and even participate in a singing contest during our college week. I can still remember her famous "Game of Love". She loves rapping too. Though she is not that good but I can teach her a phrase or two. I attended one of their church gatherings where she sang solo. I didn't look but I knew she was the one singing. Her angelic voice is just absoulutely beautiful. I had my fair share of art too. Whenever I had the chance I always scan her lecture notebook. There I draw many pictures of her. I just wonderif that notebook was still alive. Because somewhere between the pages I wrote the word "ouyekili". Which if you read backwards forms the phrase"I like you".
We had this musical play that we must perform during our general assembly somewhere around December. Our class chooses the play Alladin. Everyone knows Genie right? someone has to be the genie and thats no other than me. In any play props is major factor of the score. It was justtoo late for me when I accepted the role, because I forgot that Genie's skin is color blue. Rochy is the prop master and she was so mean to paintmy body blue! After all my pleas, (because I could just wear a blue jacket, geez) in the end I just allowed my body to be painted. But still I get the pleasureof being painted by Rochy. Okay, she painted my chest, my armpit, my back, my stomach, my face with the use of her magical hands. I was justto ashame that time because I have lots of body fats haha. Nevertheless she transformed me into a genie. I just told myself If I were real, she willbe my master and I will grant her 100 wishes. The hardest part of the body paint is the removal process. It took me an hour to remove those sticky paint. Thank God Rochy helped me clean my back(cause I cant reach them). After all is said and done our class won second place! A job well done.
If there's one thing I would hate about Rochy, its when the time she links me to grace, our class president. She was the one who started it all.She constantly links me to grace, saying things like "bagay kayo", and teasing us when we're together. Okay, Grace has also become one of mycrush. That time I like Grace too. Actually there was the time when it was all about me and Grace, we are like love team in the class! I even planned to court her actually oops. But this blog is not about grace. Eventually my feelings for her has become dry. But the fact that Rochy has started has become permanent. Up till now some people still teases me to grace. Even rochy still teases me to her, bad bad girl.
Ive become more and more comfortable with her everyday. Summer comes and here goes our summer course. For the record I failed my auditing subjectso I got an iregullar schedule. I only get to see rochy half a day on two subjects. Our romance starts here... yikee! Im sure of myself that I like her.She adds that "extra" something to my everyday. I cant transfer chairs like i used to but I still transfer seats usually to her left 3-4 seats apart.And what do you do when you like someone, you glance at her every now and then. I always glance at her, thats when the time she will also glance back. I glance and I smile. A lot of times we will meet eye to eye, and laugh after. I dont know if thats something to her, but it means to me so much.And she will always ask me why am I glancing, then I will just answer "bakit masama ba?" She always thought that I was looking for Grace who is seatedin front of her then I will just say "okay". Occasionally she would seat besides me. Thats when I get the time to talk to her and pinch her cheeks again.One day I was so surprised when she was so sad. She said she have a problem. I ask her to tell me so I can I help. So we talk later that day during lunch. She and Joie are having personal problems. The fact is she and Joie are used to be lovers. Yes, so thats the reason why they are qouted as"bestfriends". I was not surprised actually because I am very much aware of this "on" business. My ex grilfriend is also having this kind of relationship, the truth she have "one" right now. So that also explains why she and Joie are not talking to each other, and more often they are not together. Although I know some concrete facts I cant really explain whats going on because it is their story. My business here is my story with rochy.More often times you can see rochy alone in the 4th floor. Fortunately my special class is in 4th floor! I would love to take this chance to cheer her up. She eventaught me her style of reading, you encircle and underline important words hard enough to tear a paper, i've tried it and its quite effective haha. You seeIve never been this close to her, even touching her personal life. But Im becoming afraid myself. I may just end up in her comfort zone, friend zone whatever love gurus may call it. But still you ignore this kind of things. Coz thats how i live my life, I just let things happen.
Summers almost over and everyone's ready to graduate, I am not graduating yet because of my deficit. Anyway Im still happy for eveyone speciallyfor rochy, I asked for her graduation picture! Her first reply is that she has nothing left, poor rayray. Anyway I was taking my retake exams that day.Then suddenly joie entered the room and gave me something, She said it was from rochy. To my surprise it was her gradutaion pic! I just wonder whywould she ask joie to give it me. Anyway I was so happy that time not only for the pic but because theres a letter at the back. Let me share it..
to my dearest RAY,Im so happy kasi I found an extra grad pic..and since youre askin for it...and since gusto ko rin kaw bigyan...here it is! Hope you liked it!Ray sorry talaga kung ito lang ha...sana magustuhan mo to kahit la na akong ibang gift. Wanna say thank you for being a very,very good friend to me...Alam mo kahit ngayong pa-graduate na kita nakausapng matino..hehe.. maraming beses mo ako napasaya. Salamat dahil sa mga oras na mag isa ako and deep inside me Im looking for someone to talk to...lagi kang anjan. Thanks for listneing sa aking mga karamdaman,! hehe..Kapag kailangan mo ng kaibigan na willing kang samahan, andito lang ako, Ingat ka haP.S. ..Im gonna miss you po.RochSpeaking of gift, I also had a gift to her last December. It was a 2 audio cd where I compile some of the beautiful songs to my hearing. I am very much sure that she will like it because most of it are ballads. Little did she know that some of them are my offer to her. Songs like "All I do", "All my Love", "Endlessly" and "Girl like you" are only a few. I used to sing these songs whenever I think of Rochy.
It was the start of their review and I thought my time with Rochy is over. Of course I know to myself that I cant disturb her during this time. Just like she said "P.S. Im gonna miss you po", I interpreted that as a temporary goodbye. I was chatting with Dada when suddenly Che texted me asking if she should give Rochy our landline. While chatting, Dada asked me the same thing. I was surprised that Rochy was actually looking for me, she's asking for my landline number. Suddenly I felt happy. After 5 mins she called me and I get to hear her voice again. We chat like there was no tomorrow haha With that I get to know her more and more. We talked until 3 am in the morning. Because she was too scared of Emily Rose hehe
Whenever I get romantic, I get to compose poems for that special person. Poems are incarnation of the heart. With it I get to shout my sincere feelings without worrying too much. I already composed 2 poems for Rochy. Let me share them with you.
Poem01Don't get fooled with this petite
Coz you know you can't compete
Whether its sketching and singing
Or rapping with her bling bling
I only know little about you
But that's why your interesting
I curse you for being so charming
Your presence soothes my heaviest feelings
Whenever I need someone to talk to
Or just someone to accompany me
I only think of one person to approach
And that is my friend...Roch
If you can't say it then write it. Oftentimes some words are better written than said. Im the type of person who writes so much, as proven by my 3 blogs and numerous essays. I aleady gave Rochy a card letter, and its quite long. I already forgot what's written there, but I'm sure they are just simple thoughts, nothing that can scare her hehe. I just hope she keeps it so I can still look for it someday.
You know what can really get me excited? It's when everytime she invites me to their church. They had this youth activity called "Koinonia", and it means fellowship. Of course she invited me, and I complied without hesitation. I get to meet their youth group called "The Acceptors". I also get to meet a lot of wonderful persons, and that includes her dad. Of course I was scared at first but eventually I realize how approachable he is. I can't still talk to him straight as of now but I know someday I can hehe Lots of praises and singing, I am really the type of person who enjoy this kind of activity. Rochy get to sing again that day, and it was nevertheless wonderful, absolutely wonderful. I ocassionally attends their worship service every Sunday. And hopefully someday I can be a part of this wonderful chuch. From the bottom of my heart, I really want to be a member of Reach Fellowship Community, not because of Rochy but because my heart feel belonged here. Maybe someday God would help me find the proper time.
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